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02/10/2024, 8:11 p.m.
What to say! No big life updates, other than I'm slowly preparing my little ass for Kimochii Con, an anime convention coming up in May. Shopping for wigs online, hemming and hawing over shipping prices and fiber qualities. I don't really have it in me to bust out a NEW cosplay, but I'm going to be wearing one from my videos in-person for the very first time! Really excited to have the opportunity to be like "I made porn in this", and to make more porn in it. Hotel room sex is already fun, and I've been wanting to make a B/G cosplay vid forever anyhow. Actually, that should probably be the first thing I do that day, because conventions tire me out QUICK. Usually I'll throw my wig off by 6pm and call it a day, changing into a casual outfit or something. Fortunately both of my planned costumes are essentially street clothes and very comfy shoes. :D

I guess I should probably talk about the MV Awards too, right? My promo period was surprisingly stress-free after ManyVids gutted the amount of categories. I knew I wouldn't rank too highly anyway, so I honestly just turned it into some kind of Custom Video Bonanza and sold customs for cheap as kind of a new years' thing. Still ended up ranking much higher than I ever expected to! Feeling so thankful for the community. If you're reading this and you voted for me, thank you.

And that's it! I truly haven't been up to very much! But it's great to have an event to look forward to in the future. Even if it's not for moooooooonths, lol. :)

12/06/2023, 12:40 p.m.
Feeling too invigorated! Just finished a 1-on-1 Zoom call to help with branding and clip store stuff... It must be the combination of social anxiety and general joy-for-my-job, but it makes me want to plan out videos for the next few months. (That is probably a Symptom, lol.) At least I don't plan on doing much more traveling for the holidays. Nothing crazy coming up until the end of January... and I'm not even talking about AVN. Kind of wish I was, because I really do enjoy going to conventions, especially adult ones, and I'm so sad to miss out for the second year in a row! Just can't factor it into my schedule. And besides, I don't feel like I'm really "there yet" in terms of public appearances. I still feel like I need to "get my brand right": hence, the aforementioned Zoom call. The call made it apparent that I'm taking my brand seriously, which is... cool! Maybe I'm being too "serious" though? Maybe I should be fucking around a little more. *Looks at... my general demeanor, as well as this entire website* Uh, maybe I'm good for now.

The truth of it is that I just have to be advertising more. Which I hate. But in particular, I gotta branch out instead of relying on Just Twitter. They tell content creators to "Diversify! Don't put all your eggs in one basket!" and I thought that meant having 5 clip stores. What it really means is not fucking myself out of engagement because I fell out of love with Twitter. Need to figure out an eventual divorce instead of, y'know, staying together for the fanbase. I've thought about Reddit or Discord, which seem appropriately suited for my nerdy ass, but I'm so paranoid about getting deleted or harrassed or whatever. Which of course has happened on Twitter before, on a really mild scale, but what if it's not mild next time? Working myself up over hypotheticals again... (x_x)

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